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The view from Beaver Mountain

My job nowadays is as “the boss.”  So it’s not often anymore than I get to do the Engineer part of being a Broadcast Engineer.  The vast majority of my day is usually spent in front of budget spreadsheets or planning documents or purchase orders or, if I’m really lucky, working on design concepts at my gritbiggo white board.

Even so, from time to time I get to leave the office and head out in to the world.  For a couple of days this week, one of my engineers and I are making a swing through some of our remote transmitter / microwave sites in eastern Oregon.  These are the kinds of sites that you may have seen from time to time – a lonely tower on a hill out in the middle of nowhere with big round microwave antennas on it.  They’re remote, they’re hard to get to, for a lot of the year in this neck of the woods they’re buried under feet of snow and in the case of the broadcast stations using them, they bring local over-the-air television to rural areas all over the western USA.  We charge up these hills in 4WD trucks so that our viewers can watch The Simpsons and football (both the American variety and real football … a.k.a. “soccer”) and Perry Mason and Glee and the News.  We end up coming to these sites at various times all the year ’round, including the middle of winter on snow machines, in the rain and mud, in fog, in smoke and at other times when conditions are less than optimal and you’re not sure that even with a very capable 4WD that you’re going to make it up  – or back home for that matter.

But on some days – like these couple of glorious days in eastern Oregon, it is entirely possible to arrive at the top of a mountain after bouncing your kidneys up 20 miles of very “off” off road terrain, fire roads, logging roads and such (in some cases, you wonder why the heck you didn’t make the trip on a horse) and find yourself on a piece of Real Estate with a view that’s, well, hard to describe.  Especially when you’re out here in the wide open west, some of these sites are in very rural areas; far, far away from anything like a “city” and completely surrounded by open range and other mountains.  You get to a point where you almost feel guilty for getting to be there ………… almost.  So you admire the view for a while, take some pictures, stretch, and then get down to whatever work you’re there for in the first place.  in our case this week, that means some maintenance, some documentation, some tests and some research.

Of course, the ironic bit is that after bouncing your kidney’s up 20 miles of very “off” off road terrain, your first view of the glorious scenery is usually from out behind the building near the tower while you’re, um, “watering the bushes.”

 

On the Road Again

Come for the bacon-maple bars, stay to get married

The long and winding road?  Life in the fast lane?  Ramblin’ Man?  Cruisin? Get your kicks on route 66? Hit the road jack?  I can’t drive 55?  Take the long way home?

No matter what I do, I can’t manage to come up with a title for this post that doesn’t suggest or directly quote the title of a road song.

Must be my current frame of mind.

The moving van arrives at 7:00 tomorrow morning to pack up my stuff and drive it away.  I’m packing up my garage on Friday and then I’m driving away.

Thus endeth a hair over 28 months here in Phoenix, Arizona as I look ahead to returning to the Portland metropolitan area, Oregon.

And according to the weather man in Portland, it may top 83 degrees on Monday, the 4th of July and maybe 87 the next day.  I think those will be the overnight lows in Phoenix on those days.

But, as I’ve said before, it ain’t about the heat.  OK, it’s not completely about the heat.  It’s about the heat a little.

At any rate, the thing I hate to do the most – move – is about to happen again and though I’m never perfectly happy when I have to move, I’m at least happy with the end result of this one.  By Sunday evening, I should be in my new place in Beaverton, Oregon and looking forward to spending the 4th of July with some old friends.

Oh, and the post picture?  Perhaps one of the funkiest establishments anywhere, a local Portland fave, and definitely helping to “Keep Portland Weird,” 24 hours a day – Voodoo Doughnut, The Magic is in the Hole…

Memorial Day

This isn’t really about Memorial Day.  It’s being written on Memorial Day.  I guess it kind of makes a connection to one aspect of Memorial Day though.  I’ve been thinking about the idea that one person really can make a difference.  I’ve been thinking about how the leadership of one person matters – or can if that one person recognizes that it matters.  This is something that I’ve come to realize only really quite recently.

I’ve found myself, recently, thinking of myself like George Bailey.  Specifically, George Bailey in the middle of the movie when he discovers that Bedford Falls is Pottersville and Mr. Gower actually gave the kid poison…

Why?  Well, almost three years ago, I made a decision about my life, my career and my future which not only turned out badly for me, but left a large number of people who trusted me, relied on me and respected me in a lurch.  Is it my fault that their situation got more miserable after I left?  No.  But I just can’t help but think that if I’d stayed where I was, all of our situations today would be much happier.

I have more than one Clarence the Guardian Angel in my life.  Unfortunately, I’ve not been very good at listening to them in the past.  Most, if not all, of them are a whole lot smarter than I am.  I should listen more.

When one looks at one’s decisions in life and starts toting up the pluses and minuses, one begins to realize where one could have made better decisions.  Can those decisions be changed now?  Of course not.  Each decision in life acts as a lesson taught – whether or not it is recognized as a lesson learned.  I’ve tried hard to learn from my prior decisions in order to make better ones in the future.  I guess I just need more practice.

Psychiatrists will tell you that when something is causing you distress, you can do one of two things about it – one internal, one external.  You can change how you feel about the situation or you can attempt to make a change in the situation itself.

My method has almost always tended toward the latter rather than the former.  So now, I find myself in a situation caused by my reactions to a situation which was caused by my reactions to a situation which was caused by my reactions to yet another situation a few years ago.  Am I in a “bad” place?  Heck no.  I have a great job, a decent roof over my head and a life that many would envy, certainly.  I have nothing to complain about – honestly.  Am I “happy”?  Well, that’s a whole other question.  I’m certainly happy that I have health and life and friends and family.  What little I can complain about is stuff I really have no right to.  It’s all whiny, selfish, unimportant, self-absorbed crap.  I’m in a city and state I don’t like.  I’m dealing with a climate I don’t like (and it’s not just the heat in summer … I never in a million years would have thought I’d ever get sick of sunshine – but I’m sick of it).  I run in to people around this place every day that I don’t like and I really miss my old friends.

And when two weeks ago, my home was burglarized … well, that didn’t help either.  That’s never happened to me before.  No matter where I’ve lived.

But, one thing I can say without doubt.  The actions and leadership of a single person can make a difference.  In some cases a huge difference.  I used to consider myself simply one cog in a large, immovable, unchangeable machine.  I used to hear compliments that people would make about my talents and abilities and slough them off – after all, I was raised in New England humility where you didn’t trumpet your accomplishments because you were told, confidently, that good, hard, high quality work would be rewarded on its own merits when seen by others.  I used to think that my presence – or any one person’s presence – on a project or on a team or in an organization wouldn’t matter one way or the other.  Sure, the team matters, but most teams don’t do very well or feel very good about themselves without a good leader – or a good coach.

I wish I’d come to realize this earlier and I wish I’d come to realize earlier that I am that good leader.  I am that good coach.  People have been telling me this for years.  Now, staring 50 in the face, my ears have finally opened to the news.

Early mornings … ugh. Or, “I’m getting old”

photo credit: Arizona Naturalist Blog

Photo credit: Arizona Master Naturalist Blog

One of the things I’ve discovered since moving to Arizona is that in the summertime, pretty much the whole population of the Phoenix metro area shifts over to “bat hours.”  It’s just too darned hot in the middle of the day to be outside doing heavy work, so you find that it’s much better to get started at 5:00 am or earlier so you can knock off earlier and retreat in to the coolness of modern HVAC.

In broadcasting, of course, we work pretty much on a 24×7 schedule anyway, so early mornings and overnights aren’t anything new.  If you do these kinds of hours all the time, you get used to it somewhat.  The killer is when you pull a couple of very early mornings or overnights and then go back to your normal schedule.  It’s more painful when you get old like me.  The last two mornings, we’ve been pulling out several large satellite antennas in order to make room for one grit-biggo single satellite antenna.  It’s meant a 3:30 am wakeup for me each day.  Combine that with the Labor Day shortened week and … well, I really appreciate the triple espresso this morning.